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The Cathartic EP

by Melancholy Holly

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1.
Melancholy 01:41
I don't want to sit here on my own I don't really want my lonely throne I don't want to stay here anymore than I have to I don't really know how to feel about you Please don't blame yourself for how I treated you I just really want someone to sing this to Though it may seem a little strange I'm only looking out for you I don't want to make music anymore I don't want to know me anymore I don't know when I started feeling this way I just know that this feeling is here to stay I tell myself everyday that its just in my head I can't fight this feeling that I'd rather be dead Every day now that I lay my head to rest I pray to God that it's the last time I go to bed
2.
Irony 02:25
I can't tell if I'm awake or asleep Been this way for 12 years Someone wake me up from this nightmare I have yet to find someone who cares I can't tell if I've made up my past My lies are catching up I don't know if I'll last I try to find a balance but I can't I go through everyday wondering when I'll crack Stand up straight, stop slouching so much Say a joke and hope it doesn't fail My leg shakes and I break into a sweat Let this day end so I can go to bed I don't really know my name anymore I don't care to remember, it's become a chore I hide myself behind layers of irony You don't want to be here, so why are you talking to me?
3.
Goodbye 04:15
I wish that I knew how you felt I wouldn't forget you without a doubt There are so many things I don't know about myself Can you help me figure them out? I promise to treat you right Or maybe I wont, I believe my own lies End of the show Im sorry thats all folks I hate the part where we say goodbye And I hate to say goodbye And I hate this feeling of uncertainty It's been following me around all day and night Oh how I wish I could say I was alright You probably don't care, it's fine that's fair I'll go home let me get out of your hair I've created this character of you in my head Nothing you can say will bring me back from the dead I checked out a long time ago At this point Im just phoning in my lines Don't tell me I've made this dilemma in my min Its that time again, end of the show I love to say goodbye I can't get rid of this feeling of uncertainty Its been here so long its become a part of me Oh how I know that Im not alright You probably still dont care thats fine I just came out here to say goodnight I wish I knew how I felt I will try to forget you without a doubt
4.
Curly Hair 03:06
I was going bald in the eighth grade My hair is back and it has made Me a little more comfortable with myself I have no clue what to do with it My medications have made it curly I haven't found a style I will soon surly There are some days where I get real high And I look in a mirror and start to cry And I pull out my hair in handfuls at a time I don't know why, there's no rhyme or reason I punish myself I've committed treason I wish I could just curl up and die But nevertheless the story goes on I take my glasses and I put them on I hope no one sees through my true intentions I am a victim off my own invention As the days build up so does the tension I'm trying to make it through without breaking I walk like a drunk, unsure of myself N one notices, but I can tell I hide myself away on the tallest shelf I feel l'm failing every expectation I don't know if I'll make it to my graduation Sitting alone everyday doesn't help Don't even get me started on girls Society's standards make me want to hurl Why is this shit so fucking complicated? I have a hard time taking a hint Every girl I've met has left an imprint I fall in love way too easily But sometimes I feel like there is something more No this isn't superficial, No she isn't artificial There is something about her, but I can't tell what it is Maybe it's something about her hair I become so obsessed I begin to scare Myself and everyone who looks through my phone I want to write on but my brain is fried It feels like I have finally died I haven't come to terms with my circumstances This is the part where I end the song I would hate for it to drag on I will probably find some better lyrics in the future

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A collection of acoustic demos that I recorded during my free time in August of 2016

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released September 17, 2016

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